Last 7 Days

This is my last Tuesday in Samsung. Coming Monday I will be released. Past few days have been marked with parties full of celebration and nostalgia. Especially the treat that I gave to my team mates was full of nostalgic talks. Everyone remembered the last 3 years that we spent together. That recently team got split up made others too remember the good old days.

Bangalore and people (except few Autowallahs) here treated me well for last three years. Many things happened in these years, both personally as well as professionally. So again it will leaving back few good friends, good memories, good times, good place and also good weather. Again a stage in life coming to an end. The best part has been the satisfaction that I am taking along with. Its about leaving in minds and hearts of everybody out here, good thoughts and memories about me. And that I think should be the motive of time spend at different stages of life.

Be it my bakaiti, insights, solutions, listening to people's thoughts and above all humourous behavior, people will do remember me. Be it at breakfast table, be it in cubicles, be it during tea meetings or be it during snacks people will do remember my antics and needless to say I will too remember those moments and people.

Be it my manager, my super manager, my juniors, my colleagues, my old friends, my new friends, my room-mate, my ex roommates or others, I enjoyed the company of everyone and I believe they enjoyed mine too.

Thank you Bangalore. Thank you everybody.

Still The Same

I think I am still the same. Last week I had a dream which woke me up, though this is not the case most of the times. It was not any horrendous or perilous dream. But the reason was something which made me realize - my heart still resides at the same place, though I came long way from there. A part of the dream went like this.

I am on stage along with 3/4 people performing a scene where dialogues need to be delivered without any break. In other words, a very short crisp scene. I delivered my first dialogue properly thereby maintaining the scene, then I forget the next one. My chance was coming up. I was feeling restless. I was trying to recollect but without success. And then my sequence came. Abruptly I opened my eyes and was relieved to find myself on bed and not on any stage.

Frankly speaking, still want to go back to those days. No time is enough to draw me out from there.

Witness of changing times

Some day back during the WC (when India was still in race) one of my friends asked me "Why u people don't buy TV...its really worth buying it now". And I was able to give him two reasons: it gives me an opportunity to go to my friend's sweet home and then enjoy matches together there in an envoirnment full of cricket enthusiast and if we buy TV, then after long days in office, sticking to TVs which we have seen in some cases will decrease the socialization aspect of life (with friends/roommates/others) to minimal. With few people's appreciation I felt my explanation overall made sense. And also made me write this blog about the college days.

With so many people (56, if I remember correctly) joining hostel from different parts of country, the various ways of entertainment was always high on everyone's mind. I remember with no personal computer in our hostel batch in first semester, it helped everyone a lot to interact, socialize, share, be creative and even identify each others habits very closely. With only a small computer room with about 7-8 PCs, it gave every person enough time to spend time out of their rooms. I do remember people who after 1st year were rarely found out of their rooms were never in their rooms after returning from institute for 1st two semesters. There were full bakaiti and haha hihi chaupals, bumps sessions, sports activities, visits to almost each and every 20 rooms and then these PCs started arriving which changed a lot many aspects of hostel life. One of my friends having CD player and speakers and the other having a two-in-one were the only source of music in the whole wing. That was also the time that on slightest hint everyone used to assemble for everything. I still remember a day when whole batch ran, like a 100m race, after a couple of guys to give them bumps for spreading wrong information about someone's birthday (which had resulted in that guy getting a lot of bumps with nothing ON) and then came after me because they were not able to locate them at the place told by me. Then people used to share their personal troubles, complains about the system, day happenings, plans and I believe hanging around at different places in Delhi itself with friends was much more during those days. 1st PC in the whole batch was brought in 2nd sem by my friend who used to stay in the room which was just in front of mine. And in a way his life changed-few classes(almost none), all days sleeping(this is because no one let him sleep in night for obvious reasons), full time LAN games (i still remember those AOE sound effects) and definitely his interaction level decreased.

By 2nd year most of the people got their PCs and the socialization level decreased more which can be for many reasons like exposure to many new interesting arenas, time pass activities or may be learning few more things, though this last thing must be the case with least possibilty. And with few other aspects of sincerity to improve CGPAs, political and ambition clashes, personal commitments emerging ,this got reduced to minimal level.

With the latest batch that entered hostel, while I was leaving, this thing changed very much with many guys bringing their PCs or laptops along with the basic necessity that they brought with them to live in hostel. And that left with me no surprise when I get to know few guys not remebering their batchmate's names even after a month (we used to remember them in 3 days!) because they had been too busy getting adjusted to the system or just fascinated with the kind of things that they are exposed to using the LANs(DC++ which started from IITD is a big hit in all IITs and everyone who went through the transition from IPScan and Sharescan to 0DC++ knows what kinda effect this thing had and still has) or the Internet itself or even without these things the PC itself has so many options to keep one engaged.

If I remember those days I do believe that these PCs do made a lot of changes in our hostel life and though in a sense it made many things better but in other it made many things worse. And I don't know whether this TV will have the same impact but surely it made me reminisce the dull effects that PCs brought in our happy and happening hostel life few years back.

Old times ....time pass

It looks like to me, infact i have started believing it a lot, as more and more time progresses I want to be more in the past, revisiting old times again and again, imagining them, laughing at times when I cried alone or sometimes with many, becoming nostalgic for times that I spend laughing or enjoying with many(wait for those people in next blog) . It makes me think how cruel this "time" is which makes one feel presently exactly opposite of the feeling that one had at the time he is trying to reminisce. But its angel in the way that it gives you something to keep with you all throughout your life i.e. memories.

These memoirs comes out to be union of the time we enjoyed innocently in school with school friends, the time of sorrow and joy that we relished together with our college mates and then once again during those initial two months that I spend with few special people out here in my first corporate life. School times are one to which everyone wants to go back and rewrite it once again. In those days everything was like as innocent as the pitch on the first day of a test match, without any deep rooted and pre moulded thoughts about anybody. Comparing that to the present day, where one start to observe and develop thoughts about someone before even saying hello to him, makes me feel so bad and irritating but these things have settled so deep that I feel its easy to go back in past and live life once again than start thinking innocently once again.

College life is indeed the best part of life that everyone had. And its the part that one always enjoying reciting to others whenever he gets a chance and surely that does not stop after one go. The recitals may be about endless night outs; Nescafe/Canteen trips; practicing for a lot many events and waiting for the next, the day one ended; cheering and anti cheerings; bakaiti; politics and planning; judgements apart from other regular recitals(list is endless). But this was also the time that I judged a lot of people may be because once a leader always wants to be a leader or may be they made me judge them or may be jealousy made me judge them or may be I innocently judged them or may be politics made me judge them and lastly may be academics and future of theirs and as well mine made me do that. But this was the time I lost innocent thinking about anyone but started to have some deep rooted thoughts. I believe this happens with everyone and this is carried out from here for full life. And may be this blog also has this element in it. But as much I cherish the moments that I spend, I also regret missing few things and over doing few things which again may be the result of the judgement phase that I talked about. But this is the time I believe will remain the best part of life throughout my life.

The same haha hihi life continued here where I am presently. Though it became memories too early but it was the one that alteast I had not predicted. It was almost the same college life and the corporate world only started after about two months or so but these memories will remain as fresh in my life as has been the the first day I went to school.

May be thats how life will go on trying to go back few years back everytime clock clicks for the next second.